Dreaming of eternity..

2011-01-11T00:14:00.001+08:00

yeah what can i say..

many things left in my heart.

non i'd dare to say..

maybe if i be honest. u will remember .. those days that were meant to be only ours.

maybe it wouldnt become like this

2010-12-19T14:34:00.001+08:00

3 more weeks and it'll be over.
woo.. cant wait..

Life is so boring now..
finally understood why i rather chose to be alone than to be in a group of people..
i like to be quiet and alone.

but sometimes..
i need someone to be there..

where is that someone..?

2010-03-13T20:48:00.001+08:00

i despise myself.

this should be the last post that im posting here.

goodbye world.

if only i had 1 more chance.

2010-03-12T18:06:00.001+08:00

in search for the one.

2010-03-11T02:51:00.003+08:00

changed blogskin.
cause karin ASM says previous is uglier
during seoul garden

arghhh~

i just can't believe that you msged me
mysassygirl.

2010-03-11T00:47:00.003+08:00

gosh. spending so much money recently
without any income..

booo.

cap diffuser $8

$62 on tripod.

soon to be $118 on dry cabi...

my bank acc going to left 0 soon..

going to starve once again woo hooo~~

some people just want attention or affection.
like me..
when will the person appear ..
im waiting and waiting.

even though i've found that perfect one. i;ve already lost the chance.
epic. failed

2010-03-08T00:21:00.004+08:00

oppareul saranghae~

how i wish to hear those words.

anyway

updates.

dad's eldest brother passed away.. so had wake for four days. even though i skipped a day to go seoul garden + mahjong with the band peeps.

though yes. i dont mahjong..

GRADUATION YO!

i thought i could refrain from tearing/crying.. but..
i couldnt hold my tears at the crematorium..
. once the fire burns..
his body would be of no more..

every year we would see him at least once.. thinking about how he looked like when he was healthy..

and how his body deteriorated so quickly..

..
and also thinking about
how i am just not strong enough

im not strong enough to protect anyone right now.

im one of the only 3 sons carrying the bloodline.

zhihao - now carrying the burden of his whole family .. n taking over his dad's company ..

zhiliang - taking care of his sick father and family single-handedly. bought a house. bought car.. send sisters to school for education etc..

zhi jie - wasting life doing nothing productive and never growing up.

i do feel really bad.
will i be able to actually do anything like them? i doubt so.
im just too weak.

maybe. im just meant to be someone small and worthless. my sisters would probably acheive much much more than me

2010-03-07T03:17:00.001+08:00

TAEYEON AND YURI IS SUPERRRRRRRRRRR CUTEEEE

anyway.

been quite busy pass few days due to uncle's wake.

falling sick soon

i'm so used to being alone

2010-02-28T19:04:00.001+08:00

人生就是為了找尋愛的過程, 每個人的人生都要找到四個人

第一個是自己,
第二個是你最愛的人，
第三個是最愛你的人，
第四個是共度一生的人.

首先會遇到你最愛的人，然後體會到愛的感覺；
因為了解被愛的感覺，所以才能發現最愛你的人；
當你經歷過愛人與被愛，學會了愛，
才會知道什麼是你需要的，
也才會找到最適合你，能夠相處一輩子的人。

但很悲哀的，在現實生活中，
這三個人通常不是同一個人；
你最愛的，往往沒有選擇你；
最愛你的，往往不是你最愛的；
而最長久的，偏偏不是你最愛也不是最愛你的，
只是在最適合的時間出現的那個人。

你，會是別人生命中的第幾個人呢？

沒有人是故意要變心的，
他愛你的時候是真的愛你，
可是他不愛你的時候也是真的不愛你了，
他愛你的時候沒有辦法假裝不愛你；
同樣的，他不愛你的時候也沒有辦法假裝愛你。

當一個人不愛你要離開你，你要問自己還愛不愛他，
如果你也不愛他了，千萬別為了可憐的自尊而不肯離開；
如果你還愛他，你應該會希望他過得幸福快樂，
希望他跟真正愛的人在一起，絕不會阻止，
你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已經不愛他了，
而如果你不愛他，你又有什麼資格指責他變心呢？

愛不是佔有，你喜歡月亮，
不可能把月亮拿下來放在臉盆裡，
但月亮的光芒仍可照進你的房間。

換句話說，你愛一個人，也可以用另一種方式擁有，
讓愛人成為生命裡的永恆回憶，
如果你真愛一個人，就要愛他原來的樣子─
愛他的好，也愛他的壞：愛他的優點，也愛他的缺點，
絕不能因為愛他，就希望他變成自己所希望的樣子，
萬一變不成就不愛他了。

真正愛一個人是無法說出原因的，
你只知道無論何時何地、心情好壞，
你都希望這個人陪著你；
真正的感情是兩人能在最艱苦中相守，
也就是沒有絲毫要求。

畢竟，感情必須付出，而不是只想獲得；
分開是一種必然的考驗，
如果你們感情不夠穩固，
只好認輸，真愛是不會變成怨恨的。

兩人在談情說愛的時候，最喜歡叫對方發誓，
許下承諾我們為什麼要對方發誓，
就是因為我們不相信對方，我們根本不相信情人，
而這些山盟海誓又很不切實際：
海枯石爛、地老天荒，都不能改變我對你的愛!
明知道海不會枯、石不會爛、地不會老、天不會荒；
就算會，也活不到那時候。

許下諾言的時候千萬注意，不要許下可以實現的諾言，
最好是承諾做不到的事，反正做不到的，
隨便說說也不要緊，
請記住："不可能實現的諾言最動人"
在愛情裡，說的是一套，做的是另一套；
講的人不相信，聽的人也不相信。

你呢？找到了第幾個？

茫茫人海中，你遇見了誰？誰又遇見了你？

2010-02-28T06:24:00.003+08:00

yes. im not sleeping again. 6.28AM
and im up taking photos.
how weird can i be.
precious bear ~

Daddy's new year thoughts.
random lah him.
but if i could do what he wrote..
would be a miracle :S

500 days of summer

maybe i still cant let it go yet..
can there be just some signs on what i should do right now?

2010-02-28T01:15:00.003+08:00

okay okay. updates updates

i think i wont get satisfactory results for my exams.
end of story.

thinking about it just makes me sad. hurhur..

anyway. another thing thats worth mentioning

i went for dinner with melody! @chompx2
hahaha.

she got like ipod touch now x.x SIBEI RICH AH~

and

"what if i told you that, theres a guy that misses you " or something along that lines

that freaking guy is back to irritate people again -.- sibei kan bu shun yan man!

attached and yet saying this to people. what the fuck?

meh~ one day.. for sure he will get beaten up by some people.

might be me. who knows

yes. i shouldnt be emo.
will this be the last pack?
can i quit?

and

i got a freaking question so itching to ask. but then hor~
think again. better not .
walk one step see one step

2010-02-26T01:49:00.002+08:00

yeah. i understand why.
cause its the same.
i am always like that.

everyone treats me the same.
i'm already so numb to it.
im always that one thats so unimportant anyway.
then i shall continue to be one

2010-02-25T00:28:00.001+08:00

sigh.
i thnk wafer fab ish gg liao.

prepare to jump building.

my life is the shit.
i wanna cry but i know i c ant.
maybe god will bless me and grant me an early death ;/

2010-02-24T03:58:00.003+08:00

blah bleah bleeh

well well. everyone is saying micro-e is tough..

yet im kinda feeling that it should be fine.

maybe because i havent started revising for it.
=S

i shall tomorrow.

jiayou jiayou

and. am i that predictable??
melody asked if im outside .. and yes. i was out at that time x.x

how to become unpredictable? =s

everyone keep saying that im too nice..
but whats wrong with being nice?

so how do u say no to people??

2010-02-23T01:42:00.001+08:00

HORSE
Born in: 1930 1942 1954 1966 1978 1990 2002

Personality
Cheerful, quick-witted and popular. With a happy outlook, independent, subjective and self-centered. She is also good at handling wealth. A person born in this year is said to be cheerful, popular and quick- witted. He has raw sex appeal rather than straight good looks. Earthy and warmly appealing, he is very perceptive and talkative. His changeable nature may lead him to be hot-tempered, rash and headstrong at times. The unpredictable- able horse will fall in love easily and fall out of love just as easily.
In most cases the Horse will leave home early. If not, his independent spirit will goad him to start working or to take up some career at an early age. An adventurer at heart, still he is noted for his keen mind and ability to manage money. Self-reliant, vivacious, energetic, impetuous and even brash, the Horse is a showy dresser, partial to bright colors and striking designs to the point of being gaudy on occasion. The horse loves exercise both physical and mental. You can spot him by his rapid but graceful body movements, his animated reflexes and fast way of speaking. He responds quickly and can make snap decisions. His mind works
at remarkable speed and whatever he may lack in stability and perseverance, he will certainly make up for by being open-minded and flexible. Basically, he is a nonconformist.
The Horse likes: Riddles, Eat in Restaurants, Compliments, Conversation, Challenges and Kindness.

The Horse dislikes: Violence, Cold, Cheating, Noise, Bad Food and Lateness.
Compatible Animals: Tiger, Goat, Dog
Your Luck In Year 2010
Overall Forecast
The Horse is affected badly by the evil stars this year, amid the presence of the two lucky stars. Put it simply, the path is rugged and winding for you. However, if you would lower your expectations, and have a neutral heart towards success and failure, all might not seems that bad after all. Career and work luck may appear to be loaded with lots of obstacles, yet if you prudently strategise to counteract them, you will still be able to make good strife. Try to gain more networks to facilities your plans for the year. Be more committed to your goals rather than taking a relax approach. Caution against speculative activities or contractual disagreement that cause you unwanted lawsuits. Seek knowledgeable expertise if the need arises. The Horse enjoys favourable health luck this year. Be optimistic, happy and cheerful to boost your resistance to diseases. Do not be overly demanding to others, and you will not be stressed. Avoid water sports such as swimming and scuba diving. As for affinity with others, overseas noble help is capable in uplifting you to a better state. As for affairs of the heart, you have to leave everything to destiny.

Career
The male horse is expecting unforeseen problems in the career, so straight forward and simplify in your undertaking. Career luck is better for female horse.

Love
Liking and disliking is clear, but need to strike a balance. The luck of love is not so smooth, especially female indulges in the outside world of pleasure may cause family dissonance, you got to take note of this, mutual trust must be built between couples.

Wealth
The luck is not up to expectation; you may decrease in income. You are told to prepare for this since the collection of wealth sometimes fated. The possibility to trap is high engaging projects with capital intensive.

Health
You are advised to consume alcoholic drink less, otherwise may harm your health. Watch out your stomach and breathing system, especially for male.

wtffffffffff :(

fall in love easily and fall out of love easily?
i guess?

2010-02-22T02:46:00.006+08:00

song of the night
北极星的眼泪说不出的想念
原来我们活在两个世界
北极星的眼泪你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言淹没在心里面
我抬头看着爱不见

整个宇宙都流眼泪

i dont know why
but you did.

note to self : PLEASE CONVERT TO KELVIN BEFORE DOING ANY CALCULATIONS 1 degree celsius = 274 kelvin. >.>

somehow.. it feels distant now.
you are always on my mind

2010-02-21T18:17:00.004+08:00

キミを見てるといつもハートDOKI☆DOKI
揺れる思いはマシュマロみたいにふわ☆ふわ
いつもがんばるキミの横顔
ずっと見てても気づかないよね
夢の中なら二人の距離縮められるのにな

あぁ　カミサマお願い
二人だけのDream Timeください☆
お気に入りのうさちゃん抱いて今夜もオヤスミ♪

ふわふわ時間（タイム）　ふわふわ時間（タイム）　ふわふわ時間（タイム）

ふとした仕草に今日もハートZUKI★ZUKI
さりげな笑顔を深読みしすぎてOver heat!
いつか目にしたキミのマジ顔
瞳閉じても浮かんでくるよ
夢でいいから二人だけのSweet time欲しいの

あぁカミサマどうして
好きになるほどDream nightせつないの
とっておきのくまちゃん出したし今夜は大丈夫かな？

もすこし勇気ふるって
自然に話せば
何かが変わるのかな？
そんな気するけど

（だけどそれが一番難しいのよ
話のきっかけとかどうしよ
てか段取り考えてる時点で全然自然じゃないよね
あぁもういいや寝ちゃお寝ちゃお寝ちゃおーっ！）

あぁカミサマお願い
一度だけのMiracle Timeください！
もしすんなり話せればその後は…どうにかなるよね

ふわふわ時間（タイム）　ふわふわ時間（タイム）　ふわふわ時間（タイム）

O God why
Is it painful to fall head over heels in love during dream night
If I take out my precious teddy bear I wonder if I will be fine tonight?

2010-02-21T03:07:00.003+08:00

effing finally. i see
ADD REFUNDS. $208

weee FINALLY I GET MY $200 BACK. tamade~
my school + their efficiency. takes them almost 3 months to process the psea and refund me -.-
well done.

hope its a cash cheque if not have to wait again x.x
DRY CABI~ HERE I COME

im not okay.

2010-02-20T02:43:00.002+08:00

Get to know yourself better

Dear Zhi Jie Lee, below are your Personality Tests result:

Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Your view on yourself:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are intelligent

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Honest

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Sweet

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are friendly to everybody

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Don't like conflict

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Because you're so cheerful

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Fun people are naturally attracted to you

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Like to talk to you

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are a true romantic

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :When you are in love

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You will do anything

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Everything to keep your love true

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that pe

The seriousness of your love:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You like to flirt

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Behave seductively

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :The opposite sex finds this very attractive

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :That's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship

Your views on education:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Education is less important than the real world out there

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Away from the classroom

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Deep inside you want to start working

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Earning money

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Living on your own

The right job for you:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of t

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You need to choose something

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Go for it to be happy

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Achieve success

How do you view success:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are afraid of failure

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you d

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous

What are you most afraid of:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are afraid of things that you cannot control

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel

the only thing i could wish for .

is for you to be happy.

and i think u are.. so i guess i dont have to worry

2010-02-18T00:02:00.003+08:00

Days filled with emptiness.
passes day by day.
whats the aim of this life.
i'm yet to be enlightened about that.

well well.. anyway.
just remembered that.
people just never grow up..
even since sec school till now.
he is still the same. childish as ever

i just wanted someone to be there.
imy. but i guess u dont need me ..
thats why i will stop. stop annoying u.

2010-02-15T05:52:00.004+08:00

11十二星座性格分析射手座 11 12 Analysis of Sagittarius constellation of personality
最没耐心最喜欢交朋友最不懂人情世故最不重视精神层面

最会突发奇想最爱好和平最不爱用功动作最快

最多帅哥最容易交到坏朋友最不会看脸色最大而化之

最喜欢刺激最不重视纪律最乐观最会临时抱佛脚

最有肚量最会伤人心最快乐最会丢三忘四

最诚实最会运动最不修边幅最不会口是心非 =x

最不会记恨最爱往外跑最怕无聊

射手座:贪玩第一名,糊涂第一名,可爱第一名,勇于尝试第一名,心无城府第一名

2010-02-14T23:54:00.003+08:00

This is what u get for helping people .. no wonder zodiac says that this year my luck is like bullshit.
probably a sign for army... oh dear oh dear..

My sister tried to make me look good. although anyway . i still look like shit.
haha.

its okay. i can take it all.
ill always be there.
no matter what.

but if you get there before i do. don't give up on me

2010-02-11T03:30:00.002+08:00

i'll try my best.
try my best not to disturb u.
try my best not to annoy u.

i can only pray that all the best will go to you..

i'll keep praying. praying that only good things come your way.
all the bad luck/ stuffs can come to me.
i just want you to be happy.

2010-02-10T06:20:00.002+08:00

oblivious.

the word that i can only apply to myself right now.
everything just act blur

nothing will happens.
because i don't want it to.

the world where i'm in control.
ok. maybe not that much.

let me be in control of my life once in a while..
let things just go smoothly like what i'm thinking of..

im tired. really tired.. not physically tired..
but mentally tired..

this race is like forever and i haven't stopped in a while..
if i didnt had parents. i would've been long gone by now..

oh wait. if my parents didnt exist .. i wouldn't too.
i owe them my life. i can't just die because of my selfishness.

maybe im thinking too much.. but thru experience 99% of the chance its probably not what i think it is.

YES .. i am HOPING for the 1% to HAPPEN.. sub-consciously.
even though my mind is filled with pessimistic things.
i do have some little tiniest bit of hope left in me.

coonfessions of a optimist turned pessimist.

2010-02-09T17:42:00.002+08:00

this few days.
ever so tired..
boohoohoo?

exams are coming.
fck.

what should i do now? give up?

2010-02-06T03:54:00.003+08:00

past few days..
watched 2 emo show ..

emo shows are still the best even though they make my mood go =(

ah. 1 more month to the end of my poly life.
i will be a dip holder O.O

thats so quick..

i wanna go europe with nypso again.. or usa next year.. but both .. seems impossible liao..

did i tear because of the show. or is it because of you.?
cause it seems that im a hopeless person.
somehow i dont think i can make you happy.
sleepless nights..
even though i wanna sleep i just cant.
cause everytime im on my bed. u appears in my mind.

2010-02-05T00:28:00.006+08:00

=(=(=(=(=(
everytime i see this song .. i will feel so sad.

taeyeon's version :

not bad too~

and and 1 more emo song for the night.. from taeyeon again

WAHHH...

even though today was a good day ..
i didnt talk much. thats so bad

i lacked courage.
i need to say everything. and let it off me.

2010-02-04T00:00:00.004+08:00

AHH LAB TEST :(

todays lab test is lol..

ms goh offered to help people for their marks

eg.
help draw diagram = -20 marks.
help check diagram = -5 marks.
if got problem with diagram + she help rectify = -5 + - 1 to 10 marks depending on the problem.

LOL.

so damn tempted to ask to check. luckily i didnt.
phew. saved some marks from that..
i believed in myself and yes
after all the computer verification

NET-LIST CHECK MATCHED~

WHICH MEANS. BULLEYES. NO ERRORS . PERFECT JOB~!

though back annotation theory still got wrong which is 10 marks gone >.< >

side note.

melody is out of hospital..
gratz to her for toughing out that 8 days in the hospital.
and yes i owe her a meal . nows the right time to return..

i feel like im such a boring person..
i wanna entertain you but im just too tired of life...
boo. =( where are all my ideas

2010-02-03T00:02:00.002+08:00

wahh i want more edc tshirts =s
bought clothes even though its not for cny LOL
its too dark to be worn on cny.

anyway who cares.. kai xin jiu hao le ;x

then visited melody..
found out that she has throat + kidney infection
but felt relieved that shes still so active and that shes looking fine lol.
doctors bluff her, so she havent been discharged..

I'm broke and abandoned
You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true

2010-02-01T23:47:00.002+08:00

wow.

today go school.. is practically go there memorise theories.

pwahhhhh ..

semiconductor technology. aim for A.

Wafer Fab process aim for B

microelectronics AIMING FOR A B-

comm skills - god bless me

vision = B PLZ

PLC automation = A .. come on..

okay. with all that said. means i need to work harder on memorizing theory instead of application of formulas which will only give a pass -.-

side note.

melody siew is hospitalized for one week already and she told ABSOLUTELY NO ONE. until now only me and her mom knows.

damn smart ah. keep quiet only..

what are her close friends doing? how come all donno one.. zzz

hope she can come out tomorrow as she said..
gonna smack her on the head.
-.-

i've no idea what to do.
i'm like lost right now..

2010-02-01T02:20:00.004+08:00

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,

So love the people who treat you right and forgive the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason.

If you get a chance, take it.

If it changes your life, let it.

Nobody said it would be easy they just promised it would be worth it...

I believe everything happens for a reason.

People change so you can learn how to let go.

Things go wrong, so that you appreciate them when they are right.

You believe lies, so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself,

and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

- adapted from leen jiejie's blog..

the chao ah lian jiejie from jurong :X
isnt it a wonder how she treat me as a god brother for so many years already..
known her in irc like 5 years back?

somehow.. shes just feels so close to me.. gives me advice and whatsoever..
even though we dont contact much now lol.

today go out vivo see see look look .. pwah~ one shirt $80 bucks..X.X
forget it.. i go bugis buy can buy 2 shirts..

i miss europe. where always zara has the SALES section.. whereby when we bring it back to singapore.. its under NEW ARRIVAL here..
and...
H&M / DIVIDED.. WOAH~~~ my favourite shirt store~ fits me damn damn well..

maybe i was born in the wrong place =s

i just remembered what people say..
people like me who werent born handsome / cute etc must dress up properly
to compensate. but im not dressing up properly LOL..

and. i need to start skipping meals. to save money and to eat less carbs LOL. OH GOD SAVE ME PLEASE.

feel like dying hair.. but .. haiz. forget it going army liao

i need to learn to trust.
cause its an important thing.
but everyone says to trust only yourself.
because trusting people can be double edged;
it could be good or bad.
it could make you fly up into the sky in happiness.
it could also make you feel as if u fall off a cliff and BAM. your dead
so.. to trust .. or not to trust..
it depends on you/me.

if only i could trust. i would have many things off my heart

2010-01-31T15:33:00.001+08:00

i need to learn .
learn more about life.
so that i wont hate is so so much..

time to go pack my room~

i simply just love you.

2010-01-30T23:55:00.004+08:00

love is a weird thing isnt it?
even though im seeing my friends get hurt emotionally and getting mentally stressed about it..
i still cant give up.

if i returned to my previous self.. would i feel better?
would i feel better?

thoughts running through my mind..

all hopes are lost.
i should just fade away..
those are the things that should be in my mind...

sometimes. i think some things are destined..
maybe i should just give up on it thoroughly..

i feel like smoking ..
Argh.

2010-01-30T01:03:00.004+08:00

i failed miserably once again.
why am i like this..

SORRY cant be repeated for many times..
argh..

p.s:
u said you had a bad past. and i found this quote for you
"Don't let your past dictate who you are, but let it be part of who you will become..."

2010-01-29T17:50:00.004+08:00

i am terribly sorry ..
haiz.
why am i such a failure.

dont know what to do right now.

ursa, tell her not to be mad at me anymore please? i only can depend on u at such moments..

i...
must..
not...
let...
negativity..
seep...
in...
anymore..

2010-01-28T23:32:00.002+08:00

Holidays are coming.. those 2 losers are going to become busy and have no life ..

i shall probably work too..

life is going down the dumps .. im like looping back to before.. like what karin says..
everything will become like last time..

but no. i deny
boo hoo hoo..

what to do? life still goes on.. i dont have anymore excuses liao..
i cant live in denial anymore..
time to face the truth and live life to its fullest? i guess?

should i be smiling or should i be frowning?

2010-01-28T01:36:00.001+08:00

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found.. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones with all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying

2010-01-26T20:41:00.000+08:00

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back!

Don't expect love in return;

Just wait for it to grow in their heart,

But if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.

It's true that we don't know

What we've got until it's gone,

But it's also true that we don't know

What we've been missing until it arrives.

very well written.

2010-01-25T13:52:00.005+08:00

" do you smoke?"
errr no

"do u have any allergic reactions to any medicine "
err no

"do you have any other problems"
errr yes?

thanks ar MO..

Pes Bp

ALL the tests says im Pes A except my physical fitness.

well whatever.

Screw all that shit.

And.

Forget about it. i don't wanna care anymore.
I have nothing to say anymore.
i can only say that i've tried.
Nobody will care anyway.

and yes. once again

Screw all these shit.

P.S IM NOT EMO =Z

drink more. cause life is too short to worry.
it doesnt matter anyway

2010-01-24T15:12:00.004+08:00

2010-01-24T12:21:00.004+08:00

TYPE AB
¨ You are a natural entertainer.
¨ Cool, controlled, tactful and fair, you are generally well liked and you put people at ease.
¨ Be careful, though, you can be blunt.
¨ Also….make up your mind! You tend to procrastinate when it comes to decision making.

TYPE A
¨ You are a “people” person!
¨ You work well with others and are sensitive, patient, and affectionate.
¨ You like harmony, peace, and organization.
¨ But…you are stubborn and find it hard to relax.

TYPE B
¨ You are a straight forward, rugged individualist who likes to do things on your own.
¨ Creative and flexible, you are also adaptable.
¨ But…independence can sometimes go too far and become a weakness.

i dont know my blood type but i guess its AB :S

i am standing on a cliff.
a cliff thats making me oh so stiff.

i don't know what im doing here
but im standing here with all those tears.

maybe a gust of wind will come
to make a final verdict of what will come.

will i fall? will i be safe?
it all depends on the WIND which is blowing onto my face.

~~even though i think i will choose to fall and die~~

phail in writing. LOL.

this morning i remembered what xinni said ytd, she said its good to be loved once in awhile.
people says that im naive .. i guess im just following what my hearts and brains tells me to do?
and and .
jealousy is a thing i need to get rid of . because one day i'll probably die of it silently without anyone knowing my reason.

well. im just crapping again.

.love asks for no returns.

2010-01-24T01:34:00.002+08:00

wow what a freaking random day.

dota-ed with mr boonz from afternoon till night..
then suddenly went out to amkhub and meetup with the jobless mr wee liang wei..
wear until machiam guai lan kia like that ..

pwah. xerxes brought a like 1 month old viceroy menthol lights to give us..

FUK, it tasted like SHIT. lol got some weird taste to it ..
i wonder how boon managed to finish 1 stick of it when i gave up after 1 puff..

then went to lan shop/arcade cause had nothing to do >.> no car = no midnight movies..
I WANTED TO CATCH BEAR -.- but boonz say waste money ..
forget it..

played L4d.. ALMOST FELT LIKE VOMITTING AGAIN.. WHAT DA.. FUCK?
whats happening to me.?

whilst taking bus back .. guess who we saw..
miss goh xin ni.. that girl which we didnt see in like 13513151 years.
so took bus together since we like live so close..
mr boonz went home first..

pulled xinni to a void deck to catch up since i havent seen her for like at least 1 year ++
somehow .. i was able to chat with her for like 2 whole hours O.O ...
for those who think that she've changed.. heh. u know who u are..
she is still the xinni whom i know last time.. she still knows how to think la. its not like she became a very very "bad" person like what u guys think she is..
i'll clear up all the misunderstandings .. i hope.. why must lose this friendship leh.?

somehow. it contradicts..
say one act another..
im so sick and tired of all the stuffs thats going on.

2010-01-23T10:47:00.003+08:00

delete every negative thoughts and i'll start anew.
i don't know what i was thinking to type all those rubbish.
i don't know.
haiz.

what do i actually need?
assurance?
i dont know myself at all..

2010-01-21T23:34:00.003+08:00

if i could hold your hand ,
i would never let go.
because only that way.. our hearts are in sync.

i spend nights being scared.
being scared that u'll be taken away.
i need courage.

2010-01-17T16:23:00.002+08:00

song represents my feelings

2010-01-17T16:00:00.004+08:00

reminded of wat i wanted to type
maybe i dont like to sound cheeky.
therefore i don't dare to say.
but im definitely not insincere

i miss your mmm.
i miss your voice.
i miss your laughter
i miss your attitude.
i miss you staring blankly into the distance.
i miss the way u trip :x
all in all

i miss you.

2010-01-17T01:46:00.002+08:00

i cant feel like that.
i need to change. for the better ..
holding something on too tightly will only strangle it to death..
but i just cant take my mind off it.

生不如死

2010-01-15T00:53:00.002+08:00

haiz.
haiz..
haiz...

sometimes . i realised i do not know anymore.

如过我能知道你在想什么就好了，
我知道我是不可能配得上你的，
可是我又不想放弃，就因为你真的是独一无二的。

为什么天要这样玩弄我呢？

杀了我吧。：/

2010-01-14T00:50:00.003+08:00

sunset~
the colors are GREAT.
yes its taken by ME

havent been taking much photos.
sorry to people who taught me everything.
i'll fork out more time on it after my studies is done.

now i finally know why ive waited so long.
because i was waiting for you to appear.
its true.

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

2010-01-12T23:01:00.004+08:00

the nicest scenery in singapore so far. THROUGH my EYES. IN my OPINION.
i love night landscape.
so bloody nice.

i have so many photos in my camera that i havent touched at all..
shit. why have i become lazy again..

without you. my colorful world will turn dull again.

我想要相信，可是我觉得这都是一场梦。
希望有一天我会发现我不在做梦

2010-01-12T00:52:00.005+08:00

Brown eyes and lungs are filled up with smoke
Fast lives are stuck in the undertow
But you know the places I wanna go
Cause oh oh oh
I've got a sickness, you've got the cure
You've got the spark I've been lookin' for
And I've got a plan, we walk out the door

You know you wanna
Just let go
It's time to roll down the windows
Sing it oh oh
Got all we need so here we go

Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough
Shakin' me up
Turn it up
Alright, at five minutes to midnight
We'll see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop and come alive

We could
Pack up and leave all our things behind
No fact or fiction or storyline
Cause I need you more than just for tonight
You're oh oh oh like air
I can't stop my breathing in
I'm weak and you were my medicine
I won't stop till I am under your skin

You know you wanna
Just let go
It's time to roll down the windows
Sing it oh oh
Got all we need so here we go

Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough
Shakin' me up
Turn it up
Alright, at five minutes to midnight
We'll see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop and come alive

And when the clock strikes twelve
Will you find another boy to go and kiss and tell?
Cause you know I never will
I think we should strike a match
We'll hold it to the wind to and see how long it lasts
We can make the time stand still

Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough
Shakin' me up
Turn it up
Alright, at five minutes to midnight
We'll see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop and come alive

Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough
Shakin' me up
Turn it up
Alright, at five minutes to midnight
We'll see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop and come alive

i have a boring life so bear with the songs and the lyrics :S

but this few days were boring. so boring that i didnt wanted to update
only 2 things
Sunday night :)
and the EPIC MONDAY..

i dont know what happened actually so i shant say much.. really epic la.
dr goh vs few year 3s
well hope they just fix up everything..
nothing is gonna be going well until then.

i'll just keep quiet and watch now. im leaving soon and its pointless to take sides.

Today played alot of swing pieces.. at ~ 180-190 bpm. thats crazy >.<

everyone just objects.
but i tell them
i will die trying..
because life aint worth anything without risking

2010-01-11T01:57:00.002+08:00

Suppose that I missed you
Suppose that I care
And suppose that spent all my nights running scared
And suppose
That I was never there

And my eyes are screaming for a sight of you
And tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through
And I can't hold on to you
So I guess I'll be lonely too

Suppose we were happy
Suppose it was true
And suppose there were cold nights
But we somehow made it through
And suppose that I'm nothing without you

My eyes I'm screaming for a sight of you
And tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through
And I can't hold on to you
So I guess I'll be lonely too

Slow way down
This break down's eating me alive
And I'm tired
This fight is fighting to survive

Tell me a secret (I want it)
Tell me a story (I need it)
I'll listen intensively
I'll stay awake all night
All of me is a whisper (So don't leave)
There's nothing left in me (Please help me)
Not even my body is strong enough to fight (Let's make this right)
Please help me make this right

Suppose that I was wrong
Suppose you were here
And suppose that I reached out and caught your tears
And suppose this fight just disappeared

And my eyes are screaming for a sight of you
And tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through
And I can't hold on to you
So I guess I'll be lonely too
But I'd rather be here with you

Ps;
to B! : i dint bold any lyrics now =s

why do i have to know u so late..
i need to know more about you..
i just know that i need to.
=/ i will try my best.

2010-01-09T21:49:00.002+08:00

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Oh

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

i dont know how . but i seem like i keep pissing u off..
haiz.
i suck at this.

but at least i've learnt something new.
never say anything bad about myself else ..

2010-01-09T05:01:00.004+08:00

i ish tired.
its 5 am..

2010-01-09T03:28:00.003+08:00

i wanted to call..
fuck. im making excuses again..

I JUST CANT SLEEP.. when i lie down. ITS JUST THOUGHTS AND STUFF that come through my mind..

just hope that u will wakeup and forget everything..
im really sorry. will not do it again. I PROMISE..

its hard to maintain a balance..
shouldnt had played dota with boon.
SHIT.
i mend his broken heart with games.
now i have to mend my own.

2010-01-08T02:14:00.009+08:00

your laughter, your smile
makes me go the extra mile :)

after i backed up my smses.
i read through most of it once..
really made me smile ..

and i figured something very shocking..
i need to improve on myself.
amjust not good enough.

thinking about things again..
imagine life if my dad wasnt so kind to his friends.
i'll be living in private estate.
i'll be driving in a car
i'll have money for all the things i wanted.
lenses, license, car , clothes and many many others
yes im being materialistic now.

thats also why ive learnt to be selfish ..

~~fuk you people who owes my dad that huge sum of money and disappeared.~~

im just not good enough. not yet. not ever
i need to persevere. through all sorts of hardships / ups and downs of life.
leave the past behind and move towards the future like what everyone says

2010-01-07T19:35:00.004+08:00

put this down before i forget.

even though the song sucks.
but the lyrics says it all

Saw so many pretty faces
Before I saw you you
Now all I see is you
I'm coming for you, I'm coming for you
No No
Don't need these other pretty faces like I need you

2010-01-07T01:54:00.004+08:00

Today's.. Random photo..
simple yet interesting..
i like simplicity .

Shumin told me many things during monday and today that actually made sense..
i've learnt that.. i should let go of things and that everything takes time..
i can't just keep on trying to hold on to things. that will just make things/life worse for me..
time will show everything..
kudos to ky for lending me his gf :x

and no more popeyes please >.>
i resisted the temptation twice.. but today have to eat cause only ate at 9 am -.- hungry
AND . im not sad / emo. im just stoning .

shit. im starting to feel that im not good enough. it always happens..
maybe i should just hide in my hole and never come out ...
pessimism is striking back into my mind..
how to purge it?

2010-01-06T01:45:00.002+08:00

Ursa. Welcome home.=D

Im like living in a dream world right now.
everything is great except for my results..
well. people. you know how slack i am lah..

Finally got a chance to eat .. after 2 days..
YONG TAU FOO CURRY STILL ROCKs after 1 year of eating it.
but my dory fish ish gone -_- argh..

PLC got A~! thats the module to aim for A liao. SO FAR SO GOOD..
and then freaking computer vision i only got a D? i wonder if the teacher mark correctly anot.. >.>

everything is wonderful right now. its good so good that im suddenly being positive.
i wonder how long i can last thinking like this.

2010-01-04T01:11:00.003+08:00

This bear might look normal to you all. but yes, if i ever lose this bear. i'll probably stab myself.

I wonder how long i can last being optimistic.
cause i feel like breaking now.

Mind over matter ? .. not that easy..

Nothing much more to say..

school is starting again.. the endless torment of T=RC and R = 2.5Rsn(L/W) is coming back to torment me .

complex gates standard gates dynamic gates.

Open house performance on 8th and 9th.. only thing to look forward. jy to jason for the solo.

last but not least
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELODY SIEW .. !
hohoho.. sorry that i've no present for u.. YET..
stop thinking that i BO XIM =s
give me time to find something i think u will like?

the smallest of things can make me happy..

2010-01-01T16:57:00.002+08:00

my chances are fading..
school is reopening.
i don't have time..
2010 is here
ns is coming.
i've got a bad bad year ahead..
let me just die please.

i've known that nothing good ever happens. why did i hope for a miracle?

zhijie.. eternity? are u fugging serious? its impossible.

i don't have time anymore.. that is why ive tried i guess.
but i've partially failed.

maybe i'll be giving up soon. i hope i can. i hope i will ..

meanwhile. im still praying for that miracle to come..

2009-12-31T02:11:00.003+08:00

MEOWwwwwwww~

today. heard a shocking piece of news from boon about his ex.. shall not say anything about it..
but it did make me think even more.. bad sign .. the overly sensitive me + such news = more black eyes. more sleepness nights.. which will lead me to spoil my health and body..

boon. if u do read.. its time to get over it.. trust me ... life will become the usual. if u need drinking buddies. u can call me.. anytime i will bring down liquor just for you.. we'll drink till we forget everything..

time + alcohol heals EVERYTHING

people always feel unsecure.. thats why they go into a relationship..
to me.
a relation should be
- secure
- trusted
thats the two KEYWORDS im looking at.
yes. i need someone to fill the emptiness inside of me.
but i will definitely not make a move if im feeling insecure and if i dont trust the person.

i kinda don't know my mood right now.
maybe im happy. maybe im sad.
but i sure do know that.. i will not acheive anything..
dreaming of eternity? from what it seems. ETERNITY doesnt exist.

can i just say the 3 words to u and get over it? even though i know i havent got any chance cause even though i trust u so much... i still feel insecure.

2009-12-29T22:06:00.002+08:00

ok. this is sad. my doggy doll has a smiley face... EPIC PHAILSZXC~

anyway. i dont know what i am feeling like right.
when i have the chance. I WILL GO FOR IT.

this time round. no regrets.. zhijie. jiayou

2009-12-28T23:46:00.005+08:00

everyday i keep sigh-ing and sigh-ing and sigh-ing.
i can't even control it.

i feel like drinking tonight again.. cause everything just seems wrong..
im doing something that i think is impossible, but yet im continuing..

i wanted to put a start/ending to it.. but i am not confident enough.. cause i bet
it would just be a re-enactment or what happened during 2008..
that will be the worse thing that i want to happen.

maybe i should just fade off frm this world once again..

it always ends up like that.. NOTHING will ever HAPPEN. there is not a single possibility of a happy future.

FML,

FML ,

and once again

FML

2009-12-27T22:31:00.002+08:00

should i be happy or sad right now?

i really don't know.. can i just stop thinking about it..
i really hate the mask im wearing.

positive replies.

negative actions.

i don't know anymore. =(

2009-12-26T05:09:00.004+08:00

at first.
1/2 way through
limits reaching. .

YES. I STILL CANT SLEEP. IM STILL THINKING TOO MUCH.
:(

2009-12-26T02:09:00.003+08:00

maybe i said something wrong to make u hate me.
forgive me ..

2009-12-24T02:49:00.003+08:00

If only i could be like the boy above.. make u shy shy :o

looking at people perform.. yes im jealous-ed
but i wont have a chance to perform anymore.
forget it zhijie. u arent talented enough.. and u can't cope with the stress there anyway..

somehow. i feel that u are right for me. but what do u think about me?
probably just another friend.

2009-12-23T04:03:00.000+08:00

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Language is Quality Time

My Detailed Results:
Quality Time:	12
Words of Affirmation:	7
Acts of Service:	5
Physical Touch:	4
Receiving Gifts:	2

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

Take the Quiz!
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2009-12-23T03:47:00.002+08:00

（女）那教堂钟声太微弱却敲痛心中的伤口
台上庄严典礼纪念我输得彻底

（男）他揭开你面纱时候一枚戒指将你紧扣
掌声将我吞没

(女）面带笑容和你握手
（男）祝福你们的生活
（合）怎却那泪莫名地流

（男）你洁白的婚礼你多么的美丽台下我的独角戏
（女）走进院子里昨天的回忆
（合）如今随着花儿慢慢凋零
（男）你庄严的婚礼
（女）我演出的悲剧
（合）最后唯一的结局
（女）教堂的钟声梦已破碎
（合）祝福声中听叶儿随风飞

（女）面带笑容和你握手
（男）祝福你们的生活
（合）怎却那泪莫名地流

（男）你洁白的婚礼你多么的美丽台下我的独角戏
（女）走进院子里昨天的回忆
（合）如今随着花儿慢慢凋零
（男）你庄严的婚礼
（女）我演出的悲剧
（合）最后唯一的结局
（女）教堂的钟声梦已破碎
（合）祝福声中听叶儿随风飞

（男）你洁白的婚礼你多么的美丽台下我的独角戏
（女）走进院子里昨天的回忆
（合）如今随着花儿慢慢凋零
（男）你庄严的婚礼
（女）我演出的悲剧
（合）最后唯一的结局
（女）教堂的钟声梦已破碎
（合）祝福声中听叶儿随风飞

2009-12-23T02:44:00.002+08:00

dont ever try to woo her.
cause if anything happens to her. i will personally chase u down and kill you.
get me?

the perfect one. are you an angel sent to talk me out of what im doing now?
we are like worlds apart.. its just impossible.

2009-12-22T11:20:00.001+08:00

woah. one hell of a big picture.
my mood is affecting my playing
but i cant do anything to improve my mood

i wanted to say something.. but it sounds weird so i kept it within my heart

2009-12-21T02:44:00.002+08:00

i hate the smell of alcohol. but i need them to survive.
ironic to how i act huh?
cheers!

2009-12-17T02:51:00.001+08:00

i am always wrong.
its always my fault
its me not you.
all my fault.
yes. sorri
my fault lah.. then whose?
sorry for bothering u.
sorry.

really..

sorry

confessions of a pessimist

2009-12-14T23:51:00.001+08:00

hehehe nice right?!?!

2009-12-14T02:56:00.004+08:00

Life without you..

Life with you

" i love you; thus i need you and NOT i need you; thus i love you."

2009-12-13T02:19:00.000+08:00

this is for you...

2009-12-09T01:44:00.000+08:00

the lonely flower.

2009-12-08T02:48:00.002+08:00

my sunflower from the concert~ thanks to my er jie~

thanks

concert was a blast.. yet after that .. the blackhole really came

im feeling alone and confused right now. the blackhole in me has resurfaced.. and i feel ever so empty

2009-12-05T03:27:00.001+08:00

i gotta face the truth. im unwanted

2009-12-03T02:51:00.001+08:00

♥ ILOVEYOU Te Quiero, Ich Liebe Dich, S' Agapo, Te Amo, Kimi O Ai Shiteru, Wo Ai Ni (我爱你), Je T'aime, Volim Te, Aku Cinta Padamu, ILOVE YOU ♥

=O=O

2009-12-01T02:23:00.001+08:00

u were that innocent. yet i couldn't trust u.

2009-11-30T01:34:00.002+08:00

city scapes~

CBD area + great skies = nice pictures :D

but + sensor dust = fail~

"Oftentimes, you are not really afraid of loving someone. You're just afraid of not being loved back."

this might be my last chance

2009-11-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

this is what i would say..
if you were mine..

i'll try.. even if i have to die trying

2009-11-28T01:57:00.002+08:00

was a great day..
spent quality time i guess?

ate cereal prawns and yes. i puked.. fucking allergic to prawns.. argh..~ its coming back again.. maybe i really would die eating prawns...
we shall try.

maybe i was wrong... but i dont wanna give up that easily

2009-11-27T01:59:00.000+08:00

purRRrrr~~

u'll never understand

2009-11-25T02:47:00.001+08:00

credits to hui jun for her colors~

simple life? that'll never happen to me

2009-11-23T02:19:00.000+08:00

2009-11-21T01:23:00.001+08:00

你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束

the beginning.. and the end~

2009-11-20T01:51:00.001+08:00

two pictures i got today~~

black and white photo

+

vintage looking 1...

fooooo~~ im loving photography so much~

i spend every year's birthday at home.. what about this years?

2009-11-18T00:44:00.002+08:00

Another shot.. Plain and Simple.
The lonely ball ...

A photo a day..

i should take something that personifies me everyday. if i can find=/

i guess i was thinking too much.

2009-11-16T01:14:00.002+08:00

Yes. my feelings right now is like those of the empty beach..

it sucks. but i have to live on~

have i made a mistake?

2009-11-15T03:01:00.001+08:00

orchard road street shooting with edmw photography club~
take many many pictures.

pwah. morning going out with alphadslr people.
hope i can wake up..

i wonder if we are just friends or can we go further?

2009-11-13T02:53:00.001+08:00

Today .. Comms Skills group decided. have to do presentation next week le~

nothing much to update again..

i woke up.. saw u on.. then went to bath first cause of my skin irritations..
came back.. and u are gone~

2009-11-11T01:59:00.001+08:00

Buttons and switches.

Yay~ my tone is improving :D bit by bit . im getting the feel back~
JY JY ZHIJIE.. haha i'll get back the tone that i had during esplanade + vienna days
it was at the peak then..

hope i can get it back ~.

i found someone new.. someone great~ i'll continue to work hard

2009-11-09T23:47:00.003+08:00

picture of the day.

nothing much to update .. only that my life sucks.

like what you always say. i will crawl back into my lonely hole and keep myself safe there .. be who i wat i once was ... starting 11 mins after this post is posted

2009-11-05T00:15:00.002+08:00

I didnt Choose my life to be like that.
but whatever it brings me. i'll take it quietly

tired of waiting, sick of crying, yes I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying

2009-11-04T00:36:00.002+08:00

Todays Photo.
trying to learn to photoshop out nice pictures cause i am always lazy to use that.
learnt how to distort the photos abit~

School as boring as usual. was damn slow at PLC today. whats wrong with my brains :(

:(:(:(

2009-11-01T02:31:00.002+08:00

Got my kata bag~ $100~ .. i know its expensive but i really do like it.. now i can bring my camera and my books together! so that anytime i can pew pew pew..
Then next on my list is probably a dry cab or a 50mm liao..

im getting to close to get all the things i want for my camera =/ probably will take awhile though..

everytime i see people celebrating birthdays. i wonder why mine isnt like theirs .. well .. whatever.. i guess i'd be a loner instead

2009-10-31T02:34:00.002+08:00

Picture of the day.. was playing with the LED lights in my lab.. then ended up taking this quite nice shot .. contented

2nd week has pssed. and my vision teacher sucks. ask us to do labs that requires more than 2 hours to type loh. then nvr finish stay back. she ownself leave first. what kind of teacher is this?
im gonna give her shitty feedbacks for sure.

i just wanna be alone rite now. not in the mood for anything